Work and Work

Today is not only the first day of June. It is also my first day at work.

While bathing this morning, I thought about the responsibilities my new job would entail. To be honest, I am not at all excited because I have a feeling that I won't be given real responsibilities. Responsibilities with consequences. I don't know if that's a good thing since I've never had any real responsibilities before. All my life I've been assisting and supporting people doing important jobs. I don't know but that somewhat makes me feel small. I, on the other hand, am also nervous of doing tasks bigger than myself. I might not be able to pull it off. I don't want to become a liability to the Project. That is why, I always make sure that no matter how small or easy a task is, I always give it my best.

I hope that the learning curve and adjustment period would be short. Whatever happens here, I have to show them that I am someone they can depend on. I will deliver and deliver best. I might have to do some sacrifices, like minimizing time spent on multiply, facebook and yahoo mail, but that's manageable. I would have to learn how to drink coffee from now on to avoid frequent yawning since the working environment in government offices makes me feel so sleepy. But perhaps, the most difficult thing to overcome is being able to socialize with people and to work with them harmoniously. I am a perfectionist so I easily get disappointed when people makes simple mistakes or when they fail to understand simple things. I guess I really have to improve my people skills and work ethics. I can think of so many other things that will make my life somewhat difficult here.

For today, I was told to work with some people in organizing the filing and tracking system of important documents and materials of the Project. I am ready to do it but the things I need to file are still not on my desk. I am not sure whether to follow up or not. I know it's not so hard to approach them and ask whatever it is that I need. It's just that I am not comfortable doing it.

That's all for now. I'm kind of feeling lazy to end this entry. Going home in a bit! yey!